when in doubt

when in doubt..punch someone in the FACE!!! haha. um. you know this world never seems to amaze me. how hard is it to be straight forward with someone? I try to be 95 % straight forward with whoever I am talking to. or I just flat out ignore them, because I really don't feel like really should bother whatso ever with them, or their lives. for instants. when someone does something to maybe get sympthy..they PROBABLY wont get it from me.

I am talking about a few people. It's rather another and VERY hard to bite my tounge and say... "you know, suppose to be the role modle here and your doing a shit hole job of doing it..."

each and every person deserves to have their OWN lives..until, they break that (in my opinion) general rule of thumb of doing anything stupid...once their lives start affecting others, then something needs to be done.

Is life that hard that people have to cause trouble for them selves or cause drama of any kind?

After learning that I had misscarried I figured my life was over and there was nothing that was going to happen to make me happy. Well, I have to live with the fact that there was nothing I could do to stop it from happening, and I need to move on. Not saying that I should not grief and/or not be upset about it...But there is only so much I should do. Again, not that greiving should be set to a limit, because everyone greives differently. It just sucks and ALWAYS will suck to think that our baby died only after 5 weeks of being in my belly. Not cool. NOT COOL AT ALL. But, I have to look on the other side of things. Better to have it happen when it did then to have it happen when I was about ready to deliver, or many other things. It could have been 10 times worse.

So yes. I am done. Just my rambling thoughts for TODAY!

now what?

what'cha ya gonna do...

thats the question? i have no idea what is next in our lives. we were going to be parents for a whole 5 weeks, but then that was taken away in a matter of 10 hours, and then we were going to buy a house, but then we backed out. when will something come to us that is good? or even amazing. who knows, but the waiting game has been really annoying lately.

lately, i have just been in a funk. tired of drama that people stir up because they want to be selfish.

i believe in letting people live their own lives, and there is nothing you can do to stop them from living it. i learned that from a cousin who chose drugs and alcohol over a healthly life. her first time in rehab, she was a 17 year old. how sad is that right?

I dont have time for people who chose that life style, hence the reason her and i hardly every talk. she finally told me she was sorry (a year after it happened) for choosing to be wasted/high or whatever else she was at the time of my wedding and not coming to it because she was to blasted out of her mind to even stay sober for ONE day. oh well, it was better off and she has to live with the guilt about the choice she made that day.

i need to get out of my funk and get my ass working towards a goal.

i got it. i am gonna start running on monday after work.

here we gooo

i promise

to blog at least a few times a week, with pictures in ever post! and a story!

today.

It's the new year, its time to start new things.
We found out that I was pregnant Friday, January 7, and then Monday, January 10, things took a turn for the worst and I lost the baby. We have kept our heads head, but also shed some tears at the same time, becaues this is something Mr. C & I both have been wanting for a long time. This opertunity has opened our eyes to know that we can get pregnant, and in hopes of getting pregnant again is in our future...now we must wait...nothing fun about waiting.

This year brings a full year of celebrations from every which way. From Hali turning 18 and graduting high school this year (she is the last grandchild to do so) to Grandma & Grandpa celebrating their 50th wedding anniversary. & for Mr. C and I, hopefully extending our family to three..maybe more, ;-) at the end of the year.

Once that bundle of joy decides to grace us with its presnce again, I will blog once a week. That will be exciting.

I have recently been offered a full time job at the same company as my husband works, but I am in the office. This is a whole new line of work for me, espeically from waiting tables the past four years.

As for right now, life seems to be smooth sailing, for now. Let's see what 2011 brings us!

xo<3

Its been awhile

::note to reader:: excuse my non use of capitalization because my cap key does not work on the right side unless i hit it real hard. okay thanks. :)

i have been bad about updating this thing. i was on a roll for a little bit but then i stopped. right now i am on day off number 3, i've got another day off tomorrow. the hubs and i are going out to the olive garden for dinner and then to go and watch larry the cable guy, bill engvall and jeff foxworthy. pretty stoked about this!

i received part of baby olivias gift in the mail. i ordered something else off of etsy..which i am a total sucker for..what i love most about etsy is that its totally hand made and personalized. i'll post pictures of her whole present once its all here.

brian just walked through the door and is home WAY early from work (12:40) and from the sounds of it his boss called and said that the ATF doesnt want them working again...damnit this makes me mad. oh well at least we can have the day off tomorrow together and get to dinner early! yay!

okay i am going to go and meet up with vernonica for lunch. laters all.

This Much Sunshine!

So currently we have about a week and half left of February. We have more sunshine than ever before. I have been active this week and not just stay at home. Which is nice. I hung out with Marni yesterday and we worked on her baby shower center pieces. (Marni and a hot glue gun do not mix)

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with a little ribbon glued to the bucket = pretty damn cute center pieces.

She is going to be doing a garden theme. everything looks amazing.

This is baby Olivia Grace Danielson!

4 pounds 2 oz. Marni is Due April 22. (Maybe she'll have her on Tiffy's Birthday... April 14.)

Marni is BEYOND excited to become a Mommy, I see her glowing every time I see her, makes me excited to become a Mom one day so our kids can grow up together..Like her and I did...

I just read on my cousin Crystal's website that her little munchkin just added a little sister to their family. (their dad gf had a baby)

Tonight Hali plays basketball, but I have to work, I wish I could go and watch her. From what the Oregon Live Forums say they will be playing PAA. Hopefully they win and can head to PU this weekend in Forest Grove.

Since today is my Monday, I work tonight, tomorrow night and first thing Saturday Morning. Colvin's will be having a band Friday and Saturday so Brian and I will be going to that Saturday evening. I work Sunday during the day and the Monday is my Friday..the following weekend Lindsay and I are suppose to go to IKEA (hopefully this still stands!) I am excited to go.

Oh, also, we purchased a 40 inch flat screen tv last night. Needless to say. Brian's beyond stoked.

Check back tomorrow for the first installment of the "cranky customer"

ENJOY THE SUNSHINE!

i love my husband.

i love my husband. enough said. ha. today is valentines day, and i had to work (like every sunday, no big deal) i had about three tables around 9:30 this morning and just got done sending a friend of mine a text saying happy valentines day and hope her and her family had a fabulous day, then we proceed to talk about flowers...like any girl who doesn't love flowers right? well my husband, bless his heart does not like buying flowers because "why waste money on something that is gonna die" which is true..but come' on WHAT GIRL DOES NOT LIKE FLOWERS? haha. Well...Brian sent me a half dozen of red roses today at work. it totally made my day no doubt about that. and of course i was able to display them so all my customers could see them as well. (i'll post a picture later) --okay so its a few days after valentines day now...----

I think what i am going to do is add a "cranky customer of the day" on here to entertain people as well.

I find it amazing what people will do to complain or what they will say to you when they've been drinking.

I am going to go thou because its getting late and i've been on the run all day.