when in doubt..punch someone in the FACE!!! haha. um. you know this world never seems to amaze me. how hard is it to be straight forward with someone? I try to be 95 % straight forward with whoever I am talking to. or I just flat out ignore them, because I really don't feel like really should bother whatso ever with them, or their lives. for instants. when someone does something to maybe get sympthy..they PROBABLY wont get it from me.
I am talking about a few people. It's rather another and VERY hard to bite my tounge and say... "you know, suppose to be the role modle here and your doing a shit hole job of doing it..."
each and every person deserves to have their OWN lives..until, they break that (in my opinion) general rule of thumb of doing anything stupid...once their lives start affecting others, then something needs to be done.
Is life that hard that people have to cause trouble for them selves or cause drama of any kind?
After learning that I had misscarried I figured my life was over and there was nothing that was going to happen to make me happy. Well, I have to live with the fact that there was nothing I could do to stop it from happening, and I need to move on. Not saying that I should not grief and/or not be upset about it...But there is only so much I should do. Again, not that greiving should be set to a limit, because everyone greives differently. It just sucks and ALWAYS will suck to think that our baby died only after 5 weeks of being in my belly. Not cool. NOT COOL AT ALL. But, I have to look on the other side of things. Better to have it happen when it did then to have it happen when I was about ready to deliver, or many other things. It could have been 10 times worse.
So yes. I am done. Just my rambling thoughts for TODAY!
what happens to us always happens for a reason
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Saturday, February 5, 2011
now what?
what'cha ya gonna do...
thats the question? i have no idea what is next in our lives. we were going to be parents for a whole 5 weeks, but then that was taken away in a matter of 10 hours, and then we were going to buy a house, but then we backed out. when will something come to us that is good? or even amazing. who knows, but the waiting game has been really annoying lately.
lately, i have just been in a funk. tired of drama that people stir up because they want to be selfish.
i believe in letting people live their own lives, and there is nothing you can do to stop them from living it. i learned that from a cousin who chose drugs and alcohol over a healthly life. her first time in rehab, she was a 17 year old. how sad is that right?
I dont have time for people who chose that life style, hence the reason her and i hardly every talk. she finally told me she was sorry (a year after it happened) for choosing to be wasted/high or whatever else she was at the time of my wedding and not coming to it because she was to blasted out of her mind to even stay sober for ONE day. oh well, it was better off and she has to live with the guilt about the choice she made that day.
i need to get out of my funk and get my ass working towards a goal.
i got it. i am gonna start running on monday after work.
here we gooo
thats the question? i have no idea what is next in our lives. we were going to be parents for a whole 5 weeks, but then that was taken away in a matter of 10 hours, and then we were going to buy a house, but then we backed out. when will something come to us that is good? or even amazing. who knows, but the waiting game has been really annoying lately.
lately, i have just been in a funk. tired of drama that people stir up because they want to be selfish.
i believe in letting people live their own lives, and there is nothing you can do to stop them from living it. i learned that from a cousin who chose drugs and alcohol over a healthly life. her first time in rehab, she was a 17 year old. how sad is that right?
I dont have time for people who chose that life style, hence the reason her and i hardly every talk. she finally told me she was sorry (a year after it happened) for choosing to be wasted/high or whatever else she was at the time of my wedding and not coming to it because she was to blasted out of her mind to even stay sober for ONE day. oh well, it was better off and she has to live with the guilt about the choice she made that day.
i need to get out of my funk and get my ass working towards a goal.
i got it. i am gonna start running on monday after work.
here we gooo
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Monday, January 31, 2011
today.
It's the new year, its time to start new things.
We found out that I was pregnant Friday, January 7, and then Monday, January 10, things took a turn for the worst and I lost the baby. We have kept our heads head, but also shed some tears at the same time, becaues this is something Mr. C & I both have been wanting for a long time. This opertunity has opened our eyes to know that we can get pregnant, and in hopes of getting pregnant again is in our future...now we must wait...nothing fun about waiting.
This year brings a full year of celebrations from every which way. From Hali turning 18 and graduting high school this year (she is the last grandchild to do so) to Grandma & Grandpa celebrating their 50th wedding anniversary. & for Mr. C and I, hopefully extending our family to three..maybe more, ;-) at the end of the year.
Once that bundle of joy decides to grace us with its presnce again, I will blog once a week. That will be exciting.
I have recently been offered a full time job at the same company as my husband works, but I am in the office. This is a whole new line of work for me, espeically from waiting tables the past four years.
As for right now, life seems to be smooth sailing, for now. Let's see what 2011 brings us!
xo<3
We found out that I was pregnant Friday, January 7, and then Monday, January 10, things took a turn for the worst and I lost the baby. We have kept our heads head, but also shed some tears at the same time, becaues this is something Mr. C & I both have been wanting for a long time. This opertunity has opened our eyes to know that we can get pregnant, and in hopes of getting pregnant again is in our future...now we must wait...nothing fun about waiting.
This year brings a full year of celebrations from every which way. From Hali turning 18 and graduting high school this year (she is the last grandchild to do so) to Grandma & Grandpa celebrating their 50th wedding anniversary. & for Mr. C and I, hopefully extending our family to three..maybe more, ;-) at the end of the year.
Once that bundle of joy decides to grace us with its presnce again, I will blog once a week. That will be exciting.
I have recently been offered a full time job at the same company as my husband works, but I am in the office. This is a whole new line of work for me, espeically from waiting tables the past four years.
As for right now, life seems to be smooth sailing, for now. Let's see what 2011 brings us!
xo<3
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